Jesus Calling

So, I'm trying to figure this out. I don't feel like I've pulled back behind that wall of self-preservation that I did before, but I know that something's still not right. Today I was working and had a show playing in thee background, just something to listen to while I'm working and keep my mind entertained while I do mind-numbing data entry, and I felt a desperate need to play worship music. So I played worship music and I was the only one in the office so I pulled out my ear-buds and just let the speakers overwhelm the office with the music and it was awesome. Then I felt the need to read my Bible, something I haven't done in a few weeks to be honest. And as soon as I do, the guys come back in the office and some electricians come to do some work and my boss gets out of his meeting so he's here too and people come into the office needing help and the phones are ringing. I remembered that when Jesus was overwhelmed he would pull back to a lonely place to pray so I tried to do that. The second I went to the break room and closed the door, the guys left the office and started calling things in and the electricians needed me to open things for them and the phones started ringing again.

So much is going on around me that I can't seem to focus on any one thing, let alone trying to talk with God about what's happening in my head and heart. I can't even seem to focus on my work tho because my spirit is restless. I know that I need to spend time with Jesus, I can feel that it is the only thing that will bring me peace right now but so much is going on here that I can't focus on him! And I can't figure out what to do to move my focus because I can't just stop working; I can't just ignore the radio/phone calls, I can't not use the cameras and the logs and I need to catch up on my paperwork that is overflowing my desk.

My Lord I hear you calling out to me, trying to make that final pull to get me off my butt and back to where I need to be, with you, but every time I try to answer I get bogged down with the stuff of this world and I can't seem to find a way to break free from it. Help me Jesus, help me to cling to you. Show me your Truth, show me your Word. Show me your heart. Help me to hear your voice, to feel your presence. I do adore you Father, even though my attentions are divided right now. Help me to refocus. Lord give me what I need to get through work today so that I can go home and spend some real time with you today.